{"id":48710,"date":"2023-03-18T09:48:53","date_gmt":"2023-03-18T09:48:53","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=48710"},"modified":"2023-03-18T09:48:57","modified_gmt":"2023-03-18T09:48:57","slug":"tired-of-waiting","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2023\/03\/18\/tired-of-waiting\/","title":{"rendered":"Tired of waiting."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

This is what I did:<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

I waited.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I didn\u2019t realize it all those years, but now I do.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I was just waiting, dwelling, drifting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Waiting for the right moment, the right me, the right time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It was comfortable and safe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sometimes it was even blissful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I was quite content, and this period in my life, these last ten years, allowed me to replenish my energy and start feeling hopeful again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I got to breathe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It learned me a lot about being aware, seeing as The Witness, and feeling that ever-present power that is the divine energy in everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So it was helpful and much needed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But it was also incredibly passive.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Because although I did a lot and read a lot and wrote a lot, it was more about establishing a certain state, this sense of awareness, and not about going anywhere, making stuff happen, CREATING the things in life that I really wanted.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I now see that this was absolutely perfect.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Things like non-duality and the 3 Principles can create this solid platform, this grounding and connection, this conscious knowing of the power behind life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s just that I didn\u2019t realize that this power, which has a really energetic presence, wasn\u2019t just for resting and relaxing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And waiting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It’s literally the power of creation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

You can use it any way you want (and we all do, constantly), and that\u2019s what I saw recently.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It can be a totally deliberate thing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Not just a \u2018yeah well everything simply happens and I don\u2019t really exist anyway, so Namaste!\u2019 conclusion, but something we can pick up and play with and run with.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I know this, because I\u2019m doing it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I just got so fucking bored with the waiting, and all the hard work it took to stay satisfied with the lack of excitement, fun, and results.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Being a Big Walking Spiritual Smile That Most People Find Inoffensive doesn\u2019t cut it for me anymore.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I want the stuff, the things, the fun, the power, and the adrenalin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I want the rush of creation, the thrill of crushing limits, and being the brightest light instead of waiting in the shadows.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I want the stuff that I want and I\u2019m gonna get it too.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Believe me, there\u2019s no irony in my deep gratitude for the slow spiritual process, the years of wanting to transcend and dissolving into the universe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It was good and it was helpful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But the waiting is absolutely over.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

—<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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(Does this resonate with you? Do you feel like you\u2019re on the sideline, merely being a good spiritual boy or girl, trying to be content enough? Are you secretly fed up with the \u2018it is what it is\u2019 mantra, and would you LOVE to create a life filled with everything you want, including all the stuff and luxury and shiny things, without shame or guilt? I get it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Let\u2019s do it, mail me!<\/a>)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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—<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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(Photo by @karsten116, for Unsplash)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

This is what I did: I waited. I didn\u2019t realize it all those years, but now I do. I was just waiting, dwelling, drifting. Waiting for the right moment, the right me, the right time. It was comfortable and safe. Sometimes it was even blissful. I was quite content, and this period in my life, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":48712,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"off","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":""},"categories":[99,102,97,96,117,100,105,116,113,107,103,112],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48710"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=48710"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48710\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":48713,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48710\/revisions\/48713"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/48712"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=48710"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=48710"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=48710"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}