{"id":48031,"date":"2022-10-07T10:43:30","date_gmt":"2022-10-07T10:43:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=48031"},"modified":"2022-10-07T10:43:42","modified_gmt":"2022-10-07T10:43:42","slug":"welcome-to-the-circus","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2022\/10\/07\/welcome-to-the-circus\/","title":{"rendered":"Welcome to the circus!"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Sometimes I use blogs to try and get my head around something.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

And even though I know it never works and never will, it\u2019s also not useless.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I see many things without realizing what I see.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I just wonder about things.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Things that many people don\u2019t think about because it simply doesn\u2019t occur to them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Or, when they DO think about it, they\u2019re not interested in getting to the bottom of it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m not sure if I am, either.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

No clue what\u2019s going on, at all, but I am sure that I keep falling through layers of the unknown, every single day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Falling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Falling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Right now I feel a deep sadness because of nothing in particular.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s more of an appreciation, actually, a sweet thing, not crushing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Maybe I am sad because I will never be able to fully share what I see and what is revealed to me, and I can\u2019t tell you how my feelings and emotions shift constantly and bring many deep and rich experiences.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Maybe I am sad because of the sadness in the world.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Or maybe it’s just a sensation, a temporary fling, and nothing else.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

This experience is singular, exclusive, and just for me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And yet I keep talking about it, writing about it, trying to squeeze it for the truth so I can hand you some drops.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Haha.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

You see?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am laughing now!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Maybe I am just the world\u2019s laziest madman, lunatic, crazy weirdo, or psychopath.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But that was not what I wanted to talk about.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I started this little blog, just now, to tell you that everything is okay.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s not that I feel that constantly and completely for myself, to be honest, but I know that it\u2019s true and it’s pretty fucking encouraging.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So now and then there\u2019s the inclination to bring it up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

You\u2019re not as lost as it might feel (or lost at all).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

You\u2019re not nearly as fucked as you tend to believe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

You\u2019re not going in the wrong direction, ever.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And nothing, NOTHING is really up to you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

This is just a crazy circus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

You\u2019re the tent that hosts it all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

—<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(Photo by @bg7019, for Unsplash)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Sometimes I use blogs to try and get my head around something. And even though I know it never works and never will, it\u2019s also not useless. I see many things without realizing what I see. I just wonder about things. Things that many people don\u2019t think about because it simply doesn\u2019t occur to them. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":48032,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"off","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":""},"categories":[99,102,97,96,117,100,105,116,113,107,103,112],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48031"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=48031"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48031\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":48033,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48031\/revisions\/48033"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/48032"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=48031"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=48031"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=48031"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}