{"id":47408,"date":"2022-07-13T10:34:26","date_gmt":"2022-07-13T10:34:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=47408"},"modified":"2022-07-13T10:34:30","modified_gmt":"2022-07-13T10:34:30","slug":"the-purest-bullshit","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2022\/07\/13\/the-purest-bullshit\/","title":{"rendered":"The purest bullshit."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>I don\u2019t know how and where this idea started.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">But it\u2019s still there, in some version, some appearance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The best way to describe it, I guess, is \u2018the search for purity of mind\u2019.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Wishing everybody the best, always.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Not being judgmental (at all).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Being patient, always.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Smiling at the world.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Always trying to understand that people can\u2019t help believing their beliefs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Always loving, and full of empathy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And all the tightness and guilt around not doing all of that absolutely perfect.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It was way worse, once.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Way.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Trying so very hard to be holy and divine and flawless.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Having harsh conversations with myself about being lost in envy and opinions.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Feeling bad when my heart didn\u2019t feel open and inviting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Always looking to improve my habits, my behavior, and my social conduct.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Weird shit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Weird, weird shit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">As if I have to earn the good things in life, and always have to work for it, work towards it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">As if something or someone is monitoring me, 24\/7, constantly checking if I\u2019m deserving of happiness and lightness, always taking something away and then bringing it back, for a while.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">As if there\u2019s some absolutely pure version of me that I have to change into.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The spiritual end goal of the saintly being.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hahaha.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bullshit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Misunderstanding.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Habitual nonsense.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Stupid fear.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">No, no, no, nowhere to go, nothing to become.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This is it, baby.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Holy fuck!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8212;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">(Photo by @marcospradobr, for Unsplash)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I don\u2019t know how and where this idea started. But it\u2019s still there, in some version, some appearance. The best way to describe it, I guess, is \u2018the search for purity of mind\u2019. Wishing everybody the best, always. Not being judgmental (at all). Being patient, always. Smiling at the world. Always trying to understand that [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":47409,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"off","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[102,97,117,100,105,116,113,107,103,112],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-47408","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-angst","category-wakkerworden","category-english","category-inzichten","category-liefde","category-persoonlijk","category-zingeving","category-relaties","category-spiritualiteit","category-eigenwijs"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47408","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=47408"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47408\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47410,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47408\/revisions\/47410"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/47409"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=47408"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=47408"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=47408"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}