{"id":47153,"date":"2022-06-20T10:19:33","date_gmt":"2022-06-20T10:19:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=47153"},"modified":"2022-06-20T10:22:32","modified_gmt":"2022-06-20T10:22:32","slug":"naive-and-easy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2022\/06\/20\/naive-and-easy\/","title":{"rendered":"Na\u00efve and easy."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Years.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

It took me YEARS to get over it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

To stop listening to and rewarding the voice that said<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2018Nah, too easy, too na\u00efve, now go and be real and realistic again!\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Because whenever I felt relieved<\/p>\n\n\n\n

whenever I was happy for no reason<\/p>\n\n\n\n

whenever I felt really light-hearted<\/p>\n\n\n\n

just for being alive<\/p>\n\n\n\n

the voice was there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It told me about all the people who were suffering, while I was just stupidly feeling good.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It told me about my lack of empathy and my responsibility to take life seriously.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It told me that I should feel bad for all the bad things that happen everywhere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So I did.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I became really good at it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I scolded people who were happy for no reason.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I criticized and debated the ones who didn\u2019t take their responsibility as concerned world citizens seriously.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Light-hearted people were clearly simple morons.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And I kept at it until I couldn\u2019t remember what joy felt like.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joy was bad.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The easy way out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The path of least resistance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And when the fear of feeling good was the only thing that was left in my life, I had no place to go.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I was smaller than I\u2019d ever been.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Unhappier than I\u2019d ever been.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fuck, that was bad.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But that’s also years ago.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And to all the serious people who are drowning in concern, who are burning with outrage all the time, who feel that being a world citizen is about fighting and judging and blaming and criticizing, I say<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I hear you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I do.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But give me na\u00efve and too easy anytime.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

—<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(Photo by belart84, for Unsplash)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Years. It took me YEARS to get over it. To stop listening to and rewarding the voice that said \u2018Nah, too easy, too na\u00efve, now go and be real and realistic again!\u2019 Because whenever I felt relieved whenever I was happy for no reason whenever I felt really light-hearted just for being alive the voice […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":47154,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"off","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":""},"categories":[99,102,97,117,100,105,116,113,107,103,112],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47153"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=47153"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47153\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47157,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47153\/revisions\/47157"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/47154"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=47153"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=47153"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=47153"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}