{"id":46933,"date":"2022-05-30T11:24:34","date_gmt":"2022-05-30T11:24:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=46933"},"modified":"2022-05-30T15:53:11","modified_gmt":"2022-05-30T15:53:11","slug":"losing-your-mind-in-a-really-good-way","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2022\/05\/30\/losing-your-mind-in-a-really-good-way\/","title":{"rendered":"Losing your mind (in a really good way)."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Let\u2019s talk about losing your mind.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Or at least: the dominance of your mind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The slow loss of firm ideas, solid beliefs, and all the other mental snippets that seem to be part of who you are.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

We have endless amounts of those notions buried deep inside our worldview, scaffolding our personality, and holding our sense of morality in place.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

We consist of stories that pretend to be life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It looks and feels like we\u2019re living a linear existence with a past and a future.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And it seems that without those rich and deeply ingrained ideas and experiences, without this specific storyline, we\u2019d go mad.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But I can tell you it\u2019s actually the opposite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Because I\u2019ve been losing tons and tons of ideas and beliefs in the last couple of years, and the general result is a sense of massive, delicious peace.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

At least most of the time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

When this started there was a lot of anxiety and turbulence.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

While beginning to wake up and feel more connected to the inner Self, or true nature, the mind naturally became less important.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Because it doesn\u2019t like that, it will try extra hard to stay relevant.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I guess it took me a couple of years to get comfortable around this dropping away of many things that seemed so bloody important to me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

There were a lot of conversations where I had nothing to say or defend, where my social mind went blank, and I had to readjust my being in the world and the way I connected with others.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019ve seen many, many things I deeply believed in fully drop away, things that kept my self-image firmly up and my worldview stable.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It has been confusing, but mostly liberating.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Now I want you to know that this is an experience, an authentic process, not a choice.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m just describing it, not selling it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And I\u2019m telling you because this profound expansion of awareness and the gradual loss of personal tightness and fear, are going on all the time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

There\u2019s no end to losing intimate ideas and concepts because our personal world (including the self we believe to be) is completely made out of them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

There are many things that people take very seriously, all the time, that stopped meaning anything to me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It seems that more and more I\u2019m only invested in what\u2019s right in front of me, what\u2019s here, now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Many stories are still arising, but they\u2019ve lost their pertinence, their importance, their density.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

In my experience, the only thing that\u2019s real and not made of mental concepts and language and images, the only thing that has never changed and will never change, is the direct feeling and notion of aliveness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Consciousness, awareness, whatever you want to call it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And that’s what permeates my present experience of life, more and more and more.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

By the way (and for the record): none of this is either right or wrong, it\u2019s not an achievement, and there\u2019s no need to hold on to beliefs or try to get rid of them, or regard it as a personal challenge you have to take on and win.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m just sharing this because maybe you\u2019re somewhere in that overwhelming process, and maybe you\u2019re confused as fuck.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Maybe you\u2019re losing interest in what has always been so relevant and personal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Maybe defending your ideas has become less important.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Maybe it feels like you\u2019re losing your mind, your security, your human story.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And in a way that\u2019s true.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But remember: all the objections and all the worries and the fears, are created by the mind that\u2019s losing its lifelong dominance and leading position.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s nothing but smoke and mirrors, created by the mind to try and secure its importance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s like a reshuffle of reality.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

You\u2019re gonna love it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

—<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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(Photo by @hansonluu, for Unsplash)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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