{"id":46855,"date":"2022-05-23T12:53:07","date_gmt":"2022-05-23T12:53:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=46855"},"modified":"2022-05-23T12:53:11","modified_gmt":"2022-05-23T12:53:11","slug":"seeking-bliss-finding-mess","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2022\/05\/23\/seeking-bliss-finding-mess\/","title":{"rendered":"Seeking bliss, finding mess."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\"><strong>\u2018Time doesn\u2019t exist\u2019, the guru says, \u2018\u2026let\u2019s meet for another session tomorrow morning at 7.\u2019<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And you shake your head.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And you check your watch.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And you check your mind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And it doesn\u2019t make sense.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>This fucking spirituality thing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You\u2019re supposed to be everything, perfectly ONE, but you\u2019ve never felt this lost and separate and alone in your entire life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Which is nothing but a mental story, of course.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2018You\u2019re already enlightened!\u2019 is what they happily tell you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But what about this present miserable, shitty experience is actually Buddha-like?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The mind that has always been the primary thing, the center of everything, your guide, your warning system, the you-ness, is now fighting for its survival.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Even though it doesn\u2019t really exist, according to the people who know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The lucky ones.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>So you\u2019re trying to get rid of your mind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You\u2019re trying to run away from your ego.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You\u2019re trying to accept everything exactly as it is, and sometimes there\u2019s some relief and a bit of insight, but every time you become even the slightest bit comfortable, the whole fucking building starts to shake again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2018Life just happens.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2018There\u2019s nothing to do, and nothing NOT to do.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2018It is what it is.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sorry for the mess.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&#8212;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>(Photo by @philhearing, for Unsplash)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u2018Time doesn\u2019t exist\u2019, the guru says, \u2018\u2026let\u2019s meet for another session tomorrow morning at 7.\u2019 And you shake your head. And you check your watch. And you check your mind. And it doesn\u2019t make sense. This fucking spirituality thing. You\u2019re supposed to be everything, perfectly ONE, but you\u2019ve never felt this lost and separate and [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":46856,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"off","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":""},"categories":[102,97,117,100,116,113,103,112],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46855"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=46855"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46855\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":46857,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46855\/revisions\/46857"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/46856"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=46855"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=46855"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=46855"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}