{"id":46845,"date":"2022-05-23T10:28:34","date_gmt":"2022-05-23T10:28:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=46845"},"modified":"2022-05-23T10:41:14","modified_gmt":"2022-05-23T10:41:14","slug":"lost-in-the-non-existing-trap","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2022\/05\/23\/lost-in-the-non-existing-trap\/","title":{"rendered":"Lost in the non-existing trap."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

The searching movement has flared up again.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

It has been raining insights lately, like sweet building blocks for less confusion and the disappearance of personal attachment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

They\u2019re absolutely liberating and profound, even though they don\u2019t really teach me more about what already is.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The ‘me’ that doesn\u2019t really exist, of course.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I can sit in my bed contemplating The Moment, Being as The Now, and that\u2019s where the rabbit holes seem to appear, effortlessly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It starts with a little excitement about simply being Being, but soon it becomes more complicated in the name of understanding it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And later on, simpler.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And after that: more confusing again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

For example: labeling what is, right now, is a good one (and we’ll get back to that one).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Trying to rest as Just Being is also excellent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Realizing that all the attempts are nothing but creations within Being opens up new cans of seemingly spiritual worms.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And of course, there\u2019s the \u2018If this is so simple, why can it look so hard!\u2019-type of mental noise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Where \u2018nuisance\u2019 is, of course, nothing but another label, and labeling is of the person (therefore not enlightened), so there\u2019s no pure Beingness going on.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ad infinitum ugh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And then I just feel great.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Huh?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Inevitably followed by the urgent tendency to find out what happened so I can forever own the feeling of great (probably \u2018just\u2019 being Beingness).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Which automatically fucks up the feeling of great.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

All part of Beingness, of course.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But unfortunately, I want Beingness to behave in a more blissful way (even though there is no \u2018I\u2019 that wants anything, we all know that, the \u2018we\u2019 that don\u2019t exist).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Which is, again, nothing but a seemingly important, fleeting experience in Beingness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The Beingness that is everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And nothing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And of course, eventually, there\u2019s this tremendous notion of relief again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2018It can\u2019t be anything else than what\u2019s happening now.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Wow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Feeling the immense simplicity of that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The directness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The obviousness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2018I know that I know that I don\u2019t know\u2019 and all that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Another Wow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beingness is ready to reveal itself completely, profoundly, ultimately, and forever.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Oh yeah\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am SO close\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Just this one, tiny nudge….<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2018But you still have to make money, right?\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fuck.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hahahaha!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

—<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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(Photo by @annamaiwald, for Unsplash)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

The searching movement has flared up again. It has been raining insights lately, like sweet building blocks for less confusion and the disappearance of personal attachment. They\u2019re absolutely liberating and profound, even though they don\u2019t really teach me more about what already is. The ‘me’ that doesn\u2019t really exist, of course. I can sit in […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":46846,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"off","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":""},"categories":[97,117,100,116,113,103,112],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46845"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=46845"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46845\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":46851,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46845\/revisions\/46851"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/46846"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=46845"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=46845"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=46845"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}