{"id":46768,"date":"2022-05-16T11:56:57","date_gmt":"2022-05-16T11:56:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=46768"},"modified":"2022-05-16T11:57:03","modified_gmt":"2022-05-16T11:57:03","slug":"seeing-it-losing-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2022\/05\/16\/seeing-it-losing-it\/","title":{"rendered":"Seeing it, losing it."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\"><strong>It happened many times before.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The liberating, expanding realization of<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u201cOh fuck, this moment, THIS experience, this life, is really all there is and there\u2019s nothing I can do or even need to do!!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>BOOM!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bliss.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bliss bliss bliss.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Smile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>LOL.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Simplicity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Relaxation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>One cloud in a blue sky.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Wow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>More bliss.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Just this.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And this.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Blisswow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Wait a minute&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>What if I don\u2019t like this particular this?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>What if I don\u2019t feel good about what is?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>How do I like what I don\u2019t like?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>How do I accept the unacceptable, and embrace the unembraceable?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>How does this empower me?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And if there isn\u2019t even a me, like the spiritual people say all the time, why does it feel so miserable?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I fucking hate this now!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&#8230;&#8230;..<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And so it can happen, it WILL happen, that the sense of personal responsibility, the deep urge to feel safe and have control, kicks in again, and stresses you out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And you\u2019ll run around again, looking for answers and tips and tricks and ways to feel better.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And life is complicated again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You have to make it work again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Until.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Until the realization of<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cOh fuck, hahaha, I fell for it again! This, THIS, is really all there is and there\u2019s nothing I can do or even need to do and it\u2019s all okay even WHEN IT ISN\u2019T!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>BOOM!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bliss.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>LOL.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2014<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>(Photo by @ntaylor13, for Unsplash)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It happened many times before. The liberating, expanding realization of \u201cOh fuck, this moment, THIS experience, this life, is really all there is and there\u2019s nothing I can do or even need to do!!\u201d BOOM! Bliss. Bliss bliss bliss. Smile. LOL. Simplicity. Relaxation. One cloud in a blue sky. Wow. More bliss. Just this. And [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":46769,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"off","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":""},"categories":[102,97,117,100,116,113,103,112],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46768"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=46768"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46768\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":46770,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46768\/revisions\/46770"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/46769"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=46768"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=46768"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=46768"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}