{"id":31670,"date":"2021-05-16T16:36:08","date_gmt":"2021-05-16T16:36:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=31670"},"modified":"2021-05-16T16:36:09","modified_gmt":"2021-05-16T16:36:09","slug":"watching-porn-and-other-enlightened-stuff","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2021\/05\/16\/watching-porn-and-other-enlightened-stuff\/","title":{"rendered":"Watching porn (and other enlightened stuff)."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

The following might be obvious to some, and a shock to others:<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am not a flawless person.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nope.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I haven\u2019t transcended my humanness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am not completely awake and wise beyond conditioning (LOL).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am not perfect and brilliant and poetically engaged and non-judgmental all the time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Not even close.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The reason I am sharing this, is that I realized today that my posts may project an image of wisdom and utter positivity and really knowing where I\u2019m going in life, like enlightened messages from a bearded angel on earth.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But that\u2019s not what\u2019s going on, and I don\u2019t want to pretend it is.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am still fucked up regularly (although a million times less than before).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I judge, I criticize, I quite often feel superior and jealous and all of these other dubiously delicious human traits that are sometimes deemed \u2018nonspiritual\u2019.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am fasting all the time and work out every day, because I can\u2019t seem to accept the fat around my waist (which refuses to leave my body, something that frustrates the hell out of me).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I watch porn and enjoy it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I never give money to homeless people.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am not interested in debating global political conflicts.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I really love money (something that took me ages to learn) and appreciate shiny stuff.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am too lazy to learn how to fix my own taxes or do other administrative chores, and I am completely at ease with that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am unashamedly direct.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And there\u2019s a lot more.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It just seemed fair to let you know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Because it\u2019s all too easy to think somebody you don\u2019t really know is ten steps ahead of you, and then feel bad or inferior because of that misconception.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am full of conditioning and weird habits, just like you, but what has changed for me is that I\u2019ve found a vast amount of space around all of that crap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Or most of it, at least.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A lot, let\u2019s keep it at that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And this space gives me choices, many, many choices, and new starting points.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don\u2019t think the whole reason for or goal of being here is to leave our humanness behind and become some sort of Slick Spiritual Superhero.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

What if we ‘just’ (yeah, I know) learn to fully accept our experience, whatever experience, not take it too seriously, and learn how to play with it and have fun as much as we can?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

What if the juice of life is joy, and what if we learn to leisurely float in it, with or without our sometimes ridiculously stupid programming?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don\u2019t know, not for sure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But what I DO know is that I truly love and appreciate life in a way I didn\u2019t know was even possible, and what I DO know is that I feel inspired like never before, most of the day, for hours and hours and hours.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am very happy, very often.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And that is all true, and real, and priceless.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

—<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(Photo by @theeastlondonphotographer, for Unsplash)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

The following might be obvious to some, and a shock to others: I am not a flawless person. Nope. I haven\u2019t transcended my humanness. I am not completely awake and wise beyond conditioning (LOL). I am not perfect and brilliant and poetically engaged and non-judgmental all the time. Not even close. The reason I am […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":31671,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":""},"categories":[97,117,100,116,113,103,112],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31670"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=31670"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31670\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":31672,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31670\/revisions\/31672"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/31671"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=31670"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=31670"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=31670"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}