{"id":31319,"date":"2021-04-29T07:41:56","date_gmt":"2021-04-29T07:41:56","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=31319"},"modified":"2021-04-29T07:41:56","modified_gmt":"2021-04-29T07:41:56","slug":"personal-noise","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2021\/04\/29\/personal-noise\/","title":{"rendered":"Personal noise."},"content":{"rendered":"
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There is a horrible, piercing sound.<\/span><\/h3>\n<\/div>\n
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In the apartment next to me, builders are drilling in the wall.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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My wall.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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I try to listen to my YouTube video while working out, but the sound makes it impossible.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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This obnoxious noise.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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It\u2019s too early in the morning.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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It\u2019s terrible.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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It cuts right through me.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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It\u2019s an attack on my wellbeing.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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And it shouldn\u2019t be there, after 18 months of renovating which were supposed to be just 6!<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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But I know this.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Oh yes.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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I know this very well.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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I know about the sounds.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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I know that I experience way more than just this acoustic wave.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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This sound has a million meanings, and I feel them all at once, in an instance, like a freight train full of garbage exploding in my mind.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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This sound contains lifelong annoyances, hours of not being respected, nights of not being able to sleep, and weeks of not feeling important.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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The sound is like a symbol of pain, anxiety, restlessness and deep frustration.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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What I hear and how it feels is not the sound.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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It\u2019s my version, my creation.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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And I know that.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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And I don’t want it.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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So I start to release the frustration and the anger.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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I gently detach from the experience.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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I take a step back, mentally, consciously, and the agony subsides.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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The years of crap fall away.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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And the only things that are left<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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are a sound<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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and peace<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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of mind.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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—<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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(Photo by @mattartz, for Unsplash)<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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