{"id":31168,"date":"2021-03-12T14:35:18","date_gmt":"2021-03-12T14:35:18","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=31168"},"modified":"2021-03-12T14:35:18","modified_gmt":"2021-03-12T14:35:18","slug":"more-real","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2021\/03\/12\/more-real\/","title":{"rendered":"More real."},"content":{"rendered":"
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Sometimes<\/span> I think I’m the best coach in the universe.<\/span><\/h3>\n<\/div>\n
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Sometimes I believe I’m the worst.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Sometimes I am full of wonder, and sometimes I am full of shit.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Ah, well.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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After weeks of beautiful sessions I can get in my head and start feeling powerful and amazing, like being God’s gift to the world (which I am, in a sense, just like you, but without the need for arrogance or superiority).<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Instead of just enjoying the flow and magic of transformational conversations, I might believe that it is all about me, and on me.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Mighty Me.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Super ME!<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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And I start to feel really special -the smelly kind.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Ugh.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Of course life lets me indulge in that for a while, before waking me up with a humbling kick in the nuts.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Same old lesson, next level.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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So, what I’d like to say is… that’s just how it is and how I am.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Just like you.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Ridiculously awesome AND full of shit (at least now and then).<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Confident and doubtful.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Everything and nothing.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Because transcending stupid behavior and shitty ideas and narrow minded thinking is never a done deal.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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You are never THERE.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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And I don’t want to pretend otherwise.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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What has changed for me big time, though, is the bouncing back.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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The speed of letting go.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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The space around the crap.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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The delicious clarity that is so often there.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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The sense of humor surrounding the seriousness.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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I am much, much lighter, more free, more real.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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It’s all less personal, less frightening, less up to me.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Most of the time at least.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Ah well.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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