Not because something is wrong, but because how much there is actually right.<\/p>\n
And how difficult and hard it is for us to see that on a daily basis.<\/p>\n
Right now I feel the most beautiful, tender love, and it hurts me deeply that I am not able to be more aware of that and live from that.<\/p>\n
I know from direct experience how amazing and beautiful life can be, and it is deeply painful to see how we overlook that most of the time, how we constantly drift away from that, how we seem to lose that.<\/p>\n
Why is it so hard to stay in that feeling of gratitude and peace?<\/p>\n
Why can\u2019t I just sing and dance and love and be silly, even if I know for a fact that this life is here to be enjoyed and that I am safe and will be fine when it ends?<\/p>\n
There is nothing, NOTHING to lose!<\/p>\n
I feel sad because I know what is ultimately possible.<\/p>\n
I know what I could potentially give and share and ooze if only I wasn\u2019t so fiercely restricted by social, behavioral or survival crap.<\/p>\n
Being human is limiting by itself.<\/p>\n
Being confined to a body with a couple of senses makes for a rich but at the same time utterly restricted experience.<\/p>\n
I am free, but simply don\u2019t know how to fully appreciate it.<\/p>\n
Because if I understand, if I KNOW in my bones that this human reality is not ultimately real, how come I can\u2019t let go of my preferences, my longing for appreciation, my stupid judgements, all this junk?<\/p>\n
I want to love more than I love right now.<\/p>\n
I know I can, but I just don\u2019t know how.<\/p>\n
It frustrates me very, very much.<\/p>\n
The potential is there, right under my nose, but I hold back anyway.<\/p>\n
So there\u2019s this longing, this deep wish to love more.<\/p>\n
To feel brave enough to keep opening up and let the light shine through.<\/p>\n
More and more and more.<\/p>\n
I feel sad, but it\u2019s a hopeful sadness, full of opportunity.<\/p>\n
I feel sad, and it\u2019s an expression of love.<\/p>\n
I feel love.<\/p>\n
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–<\/p>\n
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(Photo by @tinamosquito, for Unsplash)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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