{"id":30888,"date":"2020-06-12T10:57:00","date_gmt":"2020-06-12T10:57:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/?p=30888"},"modified":"2020-06-12T10:57:00","modified_gmt":"2020-06-12T10:57:00","slug":"im-sorry","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/2020\/06\/12\/im-sorry\/","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;m sorry."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span id=\"fbPhotoSnowliftCaption\" class=\"fbPhotosPhotoCaption\" tabindex=\"0\" aria-live=\"polite\" data-ft=\"{&quot;tn&quot;:&quot;K&quot;}\"><span class=\"hasCaption\">I\u2019m sorry.<br \/>\nNot because I did something wrong, not because I\u2019m ashamed of my actions, but because I respect my humanness, and being sorry is an important part of that.<br \/>\nI\u2019m not sorry for making a mistake or seeing things the wrong way or acting out my mood or reacting from a highly narrow minded emotional experience of life.<br \/>\nIt\u2019s what we do.<br \/>\nI\u2019m sorry because I don\u2019t mind to acknowledge and admit ho<span class=\"text_exposed_show\">w incredibly small my worldview is, how little of the totality I\u2019m able to grasp, and how hard it is for me to truly and directly understand you, let alone see life like you.<br \/>\nI\u2019m sorry for not being able to come from the same place at the same time, to feel what you feel, and to understand how things that make you sick and angry and confused, hardly mean anything to me.<br \/>\nI\u2019m sorry that I can\u2019t experience your life in order to appreciate your pain and confusion.<br \/>\nI\u2019m sorry for this beautiful flaw, this incredible incompetence that makes me color the world in a highly specific and personal way, leaving no room to come from a truly neutral place, and hardly leaving any space for your colors.<br \/>\nI\u2019m sorry because, although I\u2019ll never really understand you, I know that you\u2019re like me, just as confused, just as lost, just as hurt, and I forget that.<br \/>\nAnd I know that whatever place I come from, you know that place too.<br \/>\nI\u2019m sorry for not being able to appreciate the true wonder of life more often and live from that from moment to moment, in love, but I know that this is part of the design, and the confusion creates space for the complete range of human traits, from dirty to divine.<br \/>\nI\u2019m sorry that I sometimes forget to treat you the way I\u2019d like to be treated.<br \/>\nAnd I\u2019m sorry for not being graceful and brave enough to say I\u2019m sorry before today.<br \/>\nIt will probably happen again, but now I know what to do and say.<br \/>\nI\u2019m sorry.<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;<\/p>\n<p>(Photo by @matthewhenry, for Unsplash)<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019m sorry. Not because I did something wrong, not because I\u2019m ashamed of my actions, but because I respect my humanness, and being sorry is an important part of that. I\u2019m not sorry for making a mistake or seeing things the wrong way or acting out my mood or reacting from a highly narrow minded [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":30889,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":""},"categories":[97,117,100,105,116,113,107,103],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30888"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=30888"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30888\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":30890,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30888\/revisions\/30890"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/30889"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=30888"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=30888"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/marnix.nl\/homepage\/welkom\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=30888"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}