I never know where a post will go.
\nThe only thing I\u2019m sure of, is that I have to get started.
\nThe rest will take care of itself.
\nLike these words you\u2019re reading right now: I only had the first sentence coming to mind, no direction whatsoever, and while writing I am already at number four.
\nVoil\u00e0.
\nIt\u2019s such a great example of how life shows you the next step if you\u2019re willing to take the one before that.
\nJust move and keep moving right into the mist, and just before you think you\u2019ll fall into the abyss, there will be a new place to stand on.
\nOut of nowhere.
\nThe last two months were kinda crazy for me.
\nI was hit by a -very familiar- truck full of doubts.
\nDoubts about clients, about my ability to work with people and help change their lives, doubts about being a good friend and doubts about the future in general, and of course doubts about the money-money-money I have to earn to keep this little life of mine afloat.
\nBut you know what?
\nDespair works wonders.
\nAt least that\u2019s my experience.
\nIt gets me on my knees, and from that position I start to look up to the dark sky again.
\nOh, hey stars!
\nIn the end it makes me listen, in silence, really listen.
\nIt breaks me only to make me susceptible for the soft voice of life that whispers new directions.
\nSo it was the same like many times before, yet very different.
\nThere was less panic, less despair and less inclination to force things to get away from the unknown.
\nThe whole colorful circus of creatively complicated thinking with all the familiar acts was in town again, but it was more like a happening within me, than a me within the happening.
\nYou know what I mean?
\nThe same internal chemical warfare, yet within a more peaceful surrounding.
\nAnd this finally pushed me into a whole new level of wonderful peace and stillness, of trust, and awe, and inspiration, and wonder.
\nLike before, this period, filled with scary smoke, turned out to culminate in a shift in consciousness, where old crap is thrown out of the window, and amazing new stuff has gently entered my life.
\nIt\u2019s like I need to be distracted for a period of time with stuff that is obviously scary to me, while the universe is secretly cooking up a new delicious plan, so I can\u2019t mess it up.
\nIn my hours of worrisome distraction, I had no clue where to go, but behind the scenes the road was beautifully and solidly paved.
\nAnd the mist has vanished, at least for now.
\nYou\u2019ve probably heard all of this before, sorry for that.
\nBut this is where the post wanted to go.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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